There is something I have had on my mind a lot. Forgiveness. Forgiveness for others, but also forgiveness for ourselves. We are all human, and the people around us aren't perfect. I know this might sound as revolutionary to some, but we all make mistakes. People hurt and disappoint us. This is one thing that is inevitable about life. I guess we just never know what that person is going through in their life. We need to be patient and willing to understand.
There was this guy that I had a pretty big crush on. He barely knew I existed, but I let the people around me persuade me to believe that if he wasn't into me, he was crazy. I let them plant the idea in my head that we were perfect for each other. I let the little things he did be a reflection of this, even though he was just being a nice guy. Long story short, he maybe, kind of, sort of broke my heart without really trying. I took it really hard. He only started talking to me again when I started dating other guys. I thought this to be a complete tool box move and said horrible things about him. The truth is- I feel terrible about it now. I recently got a glimpse of what his life has been like lately. His family life has been rough and I just passed him off as the rich kid who didn't have to work for anything because his parents gave him everything he could ever want. I'm truly sorry for what I said about him and for even the things I thought about him. I hope him the best and hope that someday we can be friends again. I'm sorry for pushing him away and I regret how I handled the situation.
Forgiveness for ourselves is also something that needs to be addressed. We are all our own worst critics. We are never satisfied with how we do or what we accomplish. However, the Lord is the most patient person with us, and He is perfect. If we are striving to be with him, then shouldn't we be patient with ourselves? I have been so hard on myself for not accomplishing incredible things. All things are possible with God, and I haven't really been including Him in my life plans, so of course things haven't been working out for me, but instead of just being mad at myself and giving up, maybe I should do something about it and do what I know I need to. I need to ask for strength and understanding. I need to ask for help and patience. These things aren't easy to attain, but I know that with God's help I will be able to do anything I put my mind to.
I think forgiving others is one of the hardest things to do in life. But if we humble ourselves and know that we can only be forgiven by forgiving we will not be held back. We can live life to the fullest by putting our mistakes behind us and simply moving forward each day. Every day is a gift and we need to treat it like one.
